明明

太多時候 明明知道會是這樣
只因為還未發生 總是心存僥幸
對自己 也對別人

比如我期待那不會到來的小卡片
比如我還是會幻想自己有那么一點special
再好的傷害也會被選擇性遺忘
傻得多么可憐

比如我幻想你應該會看得到我的辛苦
多少看到一點 一點點 一點點點
于是就不會那樣苛責
可是呢

只要想到沒有照顧好我最愛的她 還要她和我一起辛苦
我就會難過心痛到不行
"對不起"，突然就成了無法說出口的字句 極盡我很有限的圓滑

只要想起不能理解要照顧她的我
逼我 還用盡最難聽的字句來指責我
"謝謝"二字，我還是說了，只是言不由衷

這個漫長而寒冷的暑假 經歷了很多事情
認識很多好心的人 也遇到很多棘手的麻煩
好像重新活過一遍
但其實預計和現實還是差不多
認定的朋友，還是兩肋插刀
心存幻想的對象，也變不成希望的樣子
只是第一次真實地感受到家人對我的重要
那一種開心和失落 好像有了明確的重量壓在心上
而豁出去照顧她 更像是一種本能而不是勇氣

我想要的幸福
是自然的本能而不是華麗的炫耀
是低調而不是躲躲藏藏
就像我只想要一張特別的小卡片 只要收信人寫的是我的名字

My Way

共同走過的熟悉街頭 如今我只能一個人走
每一個街角都是你的影子
悵然若失 干流了些眼淚
生活還要繼續

他們的他們的吵嚷 我統統聽不到
為此損失了朋友 我亦不可惜
在我心中 家人永遠是最重要
想要爭搶這地位的人 才真是愚蠢的可笑

有時會想
如果回到北京 那些熟悉的街頭
會不會老浮現出你的影子
卻總沒有信心
現在我卻清楚地感受到
如果你離開我
我一定會難過到難以自拔

于是我知道了愛的深淺

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which I'm certain.

Ive lived a life that's full.
Ive traveled each and every highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

Plain White T's - 1234

I like this song, especially when i am driving.


give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)